Neuroticism

If you’re reading this, I’m assuming that you know that I can be pretty neurotic. I get an idea in my head and I will obsess and stress and dwell on that idea. It’s why my friends joke that I will make an excellent Jewish mother someday. 

But lately, I’ve been realizing how silly it is. I can go from relaxed to tense in a matter of seconds. Thinking about where I’m going to do with my life, worrying about my family and friends or even what I’ll be like in 10 years has the potential to drive me crazy. I’ve been known to obsess about one specific thing for 2 full weeks and will talk myself in and out of believing in this idea. It’s completely counter productive and ultimately, I end up right where back I started. 

If I were to put all of that energy into something more worthwhile, like teaching or grad school applications, who knows how different things could be. So I’m making a resolution: I am going to try to be better at turning my brain off when it comes to the things I can’t control, and to put that energy into the things that matter. So from here on out, I’m going to stop being a pre-mature Jewish mother and try to be an accomplished woman.

I have also come to realize the importance of having a good mindset (even though my dad has been telling me this for years). I am so excited to be living in Israel that my excitement and happiness has positively changed the way I see things, and it has made all the difference in the world. Why find reasons to complain when there are so many obvious reasons to be happy? 

Hopefully from now on, I’ll leave all of my neuroticism for my Jewish mother alter-ego from Long Island to deal with. 

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